We can plan our day to day life as much as we want, and often it never transpires in the ways that we think. It’s like driving an unknown road, where there are twists and turns, bridges, valleys and hills, and even a detour or two. And yet, we continue on.
It’s been awhile, since I sat to write my thoughts. I just put it all on the back burner for a short while. At least that is what it seems to be.
Four years ago this September, my life as I new it, changed forever. The man I had loved and married, decided to depart from our 37 year marriage. I was devastated to say the least. Throughout those 4 years, I experienced excruciating inner pain, anxiety, tears and so much more, from a heart that hurt so much from a loss.
However, what I now know today, is that through all that pain, I was given so much more, that I never knew was possible.
Healing can come in many forms. And I was so thankful, to have had my horse Devereux, to turn to when I was in such a low state. He offered himself through a connection of energy, while standing alongside him that reached far deeper than words.
The weight of his presence had a way of softening the sharp edges life sometimes leaves behind. Devereux would meet me in the moment. With no judgement.
Beyond the physical, he would awaken something spiritual within me. He took me into the space of the natural world, grounding me when I felt so overwhelmed. He made me feel a sense of belonging. In the presence of Devereux, my healing wasn’t forced– it simply unfolded.
The greatest gift he gave me, was that I didn’t need to have everything figured out. I just needed to show up, breathe and let the journey of trust and connection carry us forward. And for this experience, I am truly grateful.
Through the storm of my divorce, I discovered the quiet gift of floating out in calm waters. At first it was simply a place to escape, but over time it became a sanctuary where I could breathe, let the weight of my thoughts settle, and listen to the stillness around me.
The gentle ripples taught me patience, the vastness reminded me that life continues to flow forward, and in that space I found the strength to reflect, to release, and to continue to heal. It was in these moments, just me and the water, that I began to rediscover myself.
Divorce is never easy. It shook me to the core, stripped away what I thought my life would look like, and left me standing in a place that felt unfamiliar and raw.
For a long time, that’s where I found myself–lost between who I had been and who I was supposed to become. But what I see now, with a softer heart and clearer eyes, is that divorce is not just an ending. It can also be a beginning, a doorway into something unexpectedly beautiful.
The greatest discovery has been learning who I am apart from anyone else. For years, I measured myself through the eyes of another, but now I am learning to love myself just as I am–without conditions, without judgements, without the need for approval.
I am no longer tied to codependency. Instead, I stand on my own two feet, stronger, more grounded, and with a heart that is finally free.
Divorce has shown me that life is bigger and wider than I ever imagined. There are new adventures to take, new dreams to explore, and a whole world still waiting for me. It is proof that even in the hardest of endings, there is room for new beginnings. And in those beginnings, there is beauty.
From my little corner of the world,
Sue
P.S. “Keep going… Difficult roads can lead to beautiful destinations.” Zig Ziglar
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Hey Sue, I always looked forward to reading your blog when I was in Cuba for all of those years. I was able to have a connection of some sort to family back at home. It’s good to see you are doing well and starting to write again. I look forward to hearing more from you 😊
Hey Keith
Thank you! It feels great to journal/write my thoughts.
It’s a sense of release, as well as it touches other people’s lives in some way.
And for this… I am grateful
Be well
The road of life has many twists and turns it up to us to navigate them it’s never easy!
You are so right. Life is a journey. We never know what is going to unfold. It. An be difficult to navigate at times. Yet it can offer smooth sailing as well.
Be Well
…and thanks for following along
Sue
I appreciate you sharing, also, I am sorry , never knew. big hugs from a big guy that missed your adventures. Agian, I am sorry
Hello Darcy
Thank you for your caring. No need to be sorry. It’s life. It taught me lots. And I’m grateful.
You were a faithful follower back in the Chuckwagon days.
Cheers
Sue
Hi Sue , Love what you wrote I went through a divorce as well it’s not fun at all Sue take care friend Tom
Hello Tom
Yes, it’s a difficult experience for most. But there is definitely great things that come from it. We just don’t see it at the time .
Cheers
So sorry you had to go through this experience!! My heart goes out to you💖.
Hello Debbie. Thank you for your concern. If I was asked if I would change the past, I would say no. I would not want to go through the pain of divorce again, but I’m so glad I did. It has changed me in so many ways, and for this I am so very grateful. Be Well. Sue
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Thank you Sue for sharing. You are Amazing,Strong Lady, with so much to give the world!!
Hello Connie
Thank you so much for your kind words. 😊
I appreciate the Updates I am friends with your Brother Darcy. My wife Bev was an Erickson and she used to be on your families school bus route back in the 70.s. I curled with Arlene in High School. So sorry to hear about your Divorce. I hope you are doing well . Lean into Jesus he will wrap his arms around you. I was a huge fan of Rick and his chuckwagon team. Life is a gift and to embrace it through our suffering is not always easy. Take care thank you for opening up and sharing . Your journey will help others. Grace and Peace to you!
Bill Aldred
Hello Bill. Thank you for following along. Life brings each of us many experiences. Through this it molds us into who we are. And for this I am so very grateful. Be Well
Hey Sue,
I’m so sorry that you had to experience that pain. I really enjoyed reading your blog. You have always been strong, keep looking forward!
Hugs,
Shannon
Thank you Shannon for connecting. Its always good to hear, how much someone enjoys your writing. It makes one want to continue on writing. Divorce is never easy for anyone. There is always pain to experience. However, there are so many good things that also arise after the storm of the divorce dissipates. And for this I am so very grateful. Be Well
Always look for the best to come.
Absolutely! 💯
Beautifully written Sue! Divorce is never easy, been there, done that. But it brought me to a place where I needed to grow and find out who I truly was and that I wouldn’t just “put up” with being treated like that. The journey brought me to the love of my life, and for that I am so grateful. Keep on keeping on Sue 💕💕
Thank you. So many people experience divorce. However, when we go through it, we feel we are alone in it. But we’re not. It’s good to share out experiences to assist others in their journey.
Thank you for sharing and I’m so glad you’re with your special someone today.
It’s beautiful to see how you came out of this with a new heart, eyes and love for yourself. Beautiful!
Hello Denise. Thank you. Life is much different now. Quite a journey I was on, and continue to be. I have gained much love for myself. And have learned to put me first. So I can be of service to others when needed. Be Well